How to Start the Year

How to start the year.

"So trust me when I say if a guy is treating you like he doesn't give a shit, he genuinely doesn't give a shit. No exceptions"

A New Year

I've done some wicked sick stuff and went through difficult times in 2009.

1. Went down real fucking low in the mid-year; going through EOS and heart-breaking-tearing-repaired-vicious-cycle relationship issues. Going through a hard time, which was rated even worse than the previous 2 break-up combined.
2. Figuring straight what I really want to do in the future, and who I feel deserve to have a future with.
3. Met more people in my life.
4. And became great friends with 'em along the way and still are ;-)
5. Sang on stage (after many many years)
6. Taking on unfamiliar territory: the drums and conga on stage at KLCC
7. Took a really spontaneous (few days) one week break off to Tioman to be..
8. A certified scuba diver - and still advancing.
9. Met up with the ol' gang both high school and uni mates who made a difference in my life
10. The trip that never went through - Krabi - due to my own ego.
11. Went to London (my childhood dream of 22 years), Glasgow and Paris.
12. Went to all the famous monuments and landmarks except going up the Eiffel Tower (agreed with the rest, we'll only take it in the future with our own special someone)
13. Watched two musicals: Wicked and Chicago.
14. Met celebrities just standing in front of me or a distance: Kate Hudson, Nicole Kidman, Penelope Cruz, Judi Dench Rob Marshall, Daniel Day-Lewis, Russell Brand, Katy Perry, Zac Efron, David Archuleta
15. Went for a Man Utd match - and they thumped 4 - 0!
16. Took the pilgrimage to Old Trafford
17. Did something for the international medical student conference - MIMSC
18. Took all sorts of vin du chaud, baileys, whisky, gin, tonic, cider, port, beer in a span of 2 months on almost on a 3 - 4x/week basis - without getting a cirrhosed liver.
19. Held a conversation in French for 20 seconds.
20. Held a longer conversation in Mandarin for 10 mins.
21. Won RM400 thanks to our research presentation.

New Year Resolution? Bah.

Two Thousand and Nine

It's one week till the end of the year, and I already have a say on the year in review. 2009 was the total opposite of 2008, in the sense of how things started and ended. 2008 started with a bang, until the end of last year, things started to sour off. Just the total opposite of 2009.

2009 started incredibly slow, warming up to new surroundings. A hint of sourness still existed earlier on, things got even sour by mid-2009. Until, finally, once I got off from Seremban to London, things started changing, the year, in fact, I felt just started. However, it had to end so soon, when things just got brighter. Yes, after friends are telling me It's Not Worth It Anymore. I admit, I never listened. But, now, I have. Yes. It's. Not. Worth. It. At. All. This came with a tinge of Indian advice as I called it.

The last 2 months of '09 gave me lots of space, lots of time. Going back to what I couldn't find time for. Finally, read The Lost Symbol but most importantly, Andre Agassis's autobiography: Open. It's an eye-opener, that autobiography. Gives new perspective on things. How he faced painful and painless losses; and how it hurts.

Well, with that said. I found a strong distaste for guys who plays on sympathy; and dragging their parents in the process. Sad, but true. Sad, knowing that their parents would actually be ashamed of their child's demeanour, if they only knew. They don't appreciate enough how much, their parents have brought them up filled with pride, even to this day; thus playing on charitable acts of pitifulness or arousing contemptuous pity.

London was an even bigger eye opener. Meeting more people. It was her, afterall still, all along, that kept reminding me, not to give up.

Yes, people. She didn't had the attitude.

Nothing controversial. It's on repeat.

Back, Back, Back, Back

Anything that's worth having
Is sure enough worth fighting for
Quitting's out of the question
When it gets tough gotta fight some more
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love.

Kids

Control yourself.
Take only what you need from it.

Bright Eye's First Day of My Life

Couldn't believed my ears; hearing such a familiar song in a Parisian restaurant.

That's just...:-)

J'aimerais Tellement

Ce n'est qu'une larme,juste un reste du passé,
It's only a tear, just a left-over from the past

Dont je m'éloigne,mais qui ne cesse de me hanter,
That I am moving away from, but that doesn't stop haunting me

Ce n'est qu'une larme, qui entaille mes pensées,
It's only a tear that cuts into my thoughts

Je retrouve mon âme ton regard me donne envie d'avancer,
I return to my soul, your eyes make me want to move forward

Eh eh oh oh Laisse moi l'oublier
Eh eh oh Let me forget her

Eh eh oh oh Laisse moi l'effacer
Eh eh oh Let me erase her

Eh eh oh oh Pour mieux tout te donner ...
Eh eh oh oh So that I can give everything to you in a better way

J'aimerai tellement te dire ce que veut mon coeur,
I'd love so much to tell you what my heart wants

Mais je n'ai plus les mots,
But I don't have the words anymore

J'aimerai tellement te dire que je n'ai plus peur,
I'd love so much to tell you that I am not afraid anymore

Mais ces mots sonnent faux
But my words sound wrong

Je dois tout recommencer une nouvelle fois,
I have to start everything again once more

Bébé pardonne moi si je fais un faux pas,
Baby forgive me if I make a wrong step

Tu sais j'aimerais tellement te dire ce que veut mon coeur,
You know I'd love so much to tell you what my heart wants

Mais je n'ai plus les mots,
But I don't have the words anymore

J'ai peur de cette flamme,qui avant toi m'a brûlé,
I'm afraid of that flame that burnt me before you

Tes yeux me désarment, je n'ose plus les affronter,
Your eyes disarm me, I don't dare to face them any longer

Mes rêves se fanent, seul le temps pourra m'aider,
My dreams fade, only time will be able to help me

Mais quand tu t'éloigne, j'ai finalement envie de te voir rester.
But when you move away I have eventually (finally) the wish that you stay

Eh eh oh oh tu sais me parler
Eh eh oh oh you know how to talk to me

Eh eh oh oh tu sais m'écouter
Eh eh oh oh you know how to listen to me

Eh eh oh oh Bébé ... Laisse moi juste me retrouver
Eh eh oh oh Baby... Just let me find myself again

J'aimerai tellement donner autant, que toi
I'd love so much to give as much as you

Je trouverai les mots que tu attends, pour toi
I will find the words you're waiting for, for you

Je te demande, je te demande juste du temps,
I ask you, I ask you just (to give me) some (more) time

J'aimerai tellement te dire ce que veut mon coeur,
I'd love so much to tell you what my heart wants

mais je n'ai pas les mots
but I don't have the words

j'aimerai te dire que je n'ai plus peur,
I'd love to tell you that I am not afraid anymore

mais ces mots sonnent faux,
but these words sound wrong

je dois tout recommencer une nouvelle fois (aimer une nouvelle fois)
I have to start everything again once more

Bébé pardonne moi si je fais un faux pas (si je fais un faux pas)
Baby forgive me if I make a wrong step (if I make a wrong step)

Tu sais j'aimerai tellement te dire ce que veut mon coeur (bébé pardonne moi)
You know I'd love so much to tell you what my heart wants (baby forgive me)

et je trouverai les mots,
and I will find the words

Comme Avant : (Like before):
Pardonne-moi si je te délaisse
Forgive me if I neglect you

Si je m'éloigne encore
If I move away even more

Pardonne-moi si mes mots te blessent
Forgive me if my words hurt you

Si j'ai souvent eu tort
If I was often wrong

Mais je ne sais plus comment t'aimer
But I don't know any longer how to love you

Je ne sais plus te regarder
I don't know any more how to look at you

(dis-moi comment faire x2)
(tell me how to do 2x)

Trop de choses ont changées
Too many things have changed

Dis-moi si j'perds mon temps
Tell me if I'm losing my time

ME :
Si tu fais semblant
If you pretend

SL :
Nan nan // No no
C'est juste une période, // That's just a period
Un instant // A moment

Rien d'important // Nothing important
Dis-moi si je te perds // Tell me if I lose you

ME :
Oh oh // Oh oh

SL :
Ce que j'dois faire // What I have to do

ME :
J'aimerai te retrouver // I'd love to find / meet you again
Revenir en arrière // Turn back time

~~Refrain~~

SL et ME :
Je veux juste qu'on s'étonne comme avant
I just want that we surprise us as before

Quand on savait faire de chaque instant
When we knew how to make of every moment

Une aventure, un rêve toujours plus grand
An adventure, a dream always (getting) bigger

Je veux juste qu'on se donne comme avant
I only want that we act as before

Comme avant
As before

SL :
Pardonne-moi si je suis lassée // Forgive me if I am tired
Si on est plus d'accord // If we don't agree anymore

Pardonne-moi si je n'ai pas toujours fait des efforts
Forgive me if I haven't always given it a try

Mais je n'arrive plus à te cerner
But I'm no longer able to figure you out

Je n'arrive plus à te parler
I'm not able // I am no longer able to talk to you

(dis-moi comment faire x2)
(tell me how to do 2x)

Et tout ça doit changer
And all this has to be changed

ME :
Dis-moi si on passe nos' temps // Tell me if we spend our time

SL :
A faire semblant // pretending
Qu'il reste un espoir ou autant de sentiment

That there is still a hope remaining or as many feelings
Dis-moi si l'on se perd

Tell me if we get lost / lose each other

ME :
Oh oh // Oh oh

SL :
Ce qu'on doit faire // What we have to do

ME :
J'aimerai nous retrouver // I'd love to find us again (to get back to us)
Revenir en arrière // Turn back time

~~Refrain~~

SL et ME :
Je veux juste qu'on s'étonne comme avant
I just want that we surprise us as before

Quand on savait faire de chaque instant
When we knew how to make of every moment

Une aventure, un rêve toujours plus grand
An adventure, a dream always (getting) bigger

Je veux juste qu'on se donne comme avant
I only want that we act as before

Comme avant
As before

ME :
Oh oh oh oh ohx2

SL et ME :
On a encore une chance // We have one more chance
Notre histoire n'est pas de verre // Our story is not clear
Malgré nos différences // Despite our differences
On a toujours été sincère // We have always been honest

SL :
Mon cœur me dit qu'il reste encore quelque chose à faire
My heart tells me that there is still something to do

ME :
Je sais qu'on s'est blessé mais je veux pas te perdre
I know that we have hurt each other but I don't want to lose you

~~Refrain~~
SL et ME :
Je veux juste qu'on s'étonne comme avant
I just want that we surprise us as before

Quand on savait faire de chaque instant
When we knew how to make of every moment

Une aventure, un rêve toujours plus grand
An adventure, a dream always (getting) bigger

Je veux juste qu'on se donne comme avant
I only want that we act as before

Comme avant
As before

Chances

100 Years. Superman. FFF's back!

Never Could Have Seen This Coming On.

:-)

Hey get your things it's time to go
You make me glad I'm not alone
In silence we hear the tires upon the road

I turned to you and asked you why
You're so awake you must be tired
You say when we're apart you'll close your eyes

This is beautiful
This is beautiful
Unmistakable
This is beautiful

We spent the day in central park
I wrote my name down on your arm
You set off avalanches in my heart

This is beautiful
This is beautiful
Unmistakable
This is beautiful

I never could have seen
Never could have seen this coming
The most amazing things
They arrive within a moment
I never could have seen
Never could have seen this coming on

I never could have seen, never could have seen this coming
You are here with me, I'm alive all of a sudden
Anyone can see, anyone can see it's beautiful

You set off avalanches in my heart

This is beautiful
This is beautiful
Unforgettable
This is beautiful

Bad ;-)